in a couple of months, life as i know it will be over. not just life in AJ, but life as a student. closed is the chapter of 45 cents bus/MRT rides to anywhere, of groaning over canteen food, of panicking over tutorials, of laughing about failing tests. it marks the beginning of the unknown. what the future holds for me, i don't know. the paths have been marked out all this while, but now i stand at the edge of a dense forest that stretches into eternity, and the only way is in. the time has come to go cross-country, to beat out your own path where there is none. gone is innocence, gone is dependence. i will need to fight, fight harder than i ever have fought, for my own survival. before this, i walked on solid paved ground, with teachers and parents at the sidelines, and we all walked together. now i face a new beginning, as the past fades into oblivion, and ahead of me is nothing but pure, mysterious darkness.

if it was any other day, i'd fear everything that lies ahead. but feeling uncharacteristically brave today, i anticipate what is to come. i cry for the past, but i wait for the future. i wait to foray into this poisonous jungle, and i wait to unravel the mystery that lies ahead. i wait to enter a new world, to leave everything behind, and start afresh.

i wait.

scribbled
6:57 PM